Senior citizens were less in the new year eve countdown, for sure I was not there. A 21 years old man would not celebrate the new year in the crowd? Alcohol and cigarette maybe? That's what makes me happy at once after you left me. Yeah the world is so full of miserable peoples not less of me. Partying every night partying with alcohol and get drunk, but partying loneliness inside each of us. No one will understand unless you experienced it. Like somehow, I'm trying to forget the pain using alcohol, trying to forget your face by blurring my vision with those smoke. Back to the story, no one seems to care why you were drinking like a baby hungering of milk, no one really cares as they only want to have fun and just dance the whole night in the loudest bass ever. Was not it the greatest night ever?
But after all, I have to face myself when the sun rises, after each and every lonely night I was thinking of you, shielding my own world, falling my own tears, you would never know, I bet. Every morning I wake up, it seems to have been a decade you weren't here. And every night before I sleep, you come haunting my mind, my broken heart. How could you? I thought you were gone, gone forever, maybe like I was in you. But I was wrong, I tried to fill my life with crazy bitchy busy work, and it works, for a minute. And when I got my self back in silence, you came. Hugging my loneliness, I was just alone. And they said, the strongest people doesn't cry in front of everyone, that's why I cried alone at night, and smile every morning everyday.
And here, this new year, I am without you for 78 days. I won't tell you how much I miss you all these while. You are going for your new life, me too, I guess. I will always be right here loving you, thinking of you, and you are always inside my frozen heart. Pages I would have kept inside forever, those days with you.
Blessed new year, readers.
201314.
